on October 14th, 2014
Genres: Contemporary, New Adult, Romance
I had my whole life mapped out. Perfect guy. Perfect friends. Everything was exactly the way I wanted it.
That was until that night--the one I can’t remember. It’s all my fault, and now the memories are all I have left of him. Of us.
My guilt drowns me until Sam Shea steps back into my life and helps me to the surface. He slowly opens my heart and crawls deep inside before I even realize what’s happening. I know I don’t deserve him.
While I’m trying to get used to my new life, pieces of that night slowly start to come back to me. Lies and secrets shatter everything I thought I knew.
Maybe I’m not the only one living with regret.
Rachel wakes up with very little memory of what happened; she just knows she is in a lot of pain and that she wants Cory. Her last memory is of Cory and studying for finals… how did she go from there to a hospital bed? Finally someone tells her what happened and now all she feels is empty.
“I wish I could go back in time, to when everything was normal. It’s easy to forget the miracle of normal because we’re so used to living in it. I will never take it for granted again.”
Trying to come back from the pain of the accident and the severe guilt she feels is tough. But when her best friend from childhood comes to see her, she finally feels like she had a shoulder to lean on.
“We’ve all been given a life, but we have to make a conscious decision to live it.”
Sam Shea was her neighbor growing up and although her parents thought he was trouble, he was always there for her. She stopped talking to him when she started high school and started dating Cory, but she never stopped thinking about him. Rachel has been the only one to make Sam “feel things” and he has been waiting for a long time for a chance to be with her.
“The only thing I know I need in my future is you.”
I loved Sam. He seemed rough around the edges, but he was really a romantic loving guy. He seemed to always be right there for Rachel, sometimes before she even realized she needed him. He was patient with her, taking things as slow as she needed them to be, but also pushing her limits too.
“Sam Shea is one of those forever guys. The kind you like a little more with each minute you spend with him. The kind that opens your heart slowly and crawls deep inside before you even realize what’s happening.”
Rachel has not only been through a tragic event, but due to the memory loss she puts so much of the burden on herself. Even with all of this, she still came across as a very strong character. She could have let the despair get to her, but instead she rises above it and changes her life for the better. I really enjoy Lisa De Jong’s writing. She writes with so much emotion that you really feel what the characters are going through. I can’t wait to read more from her.